"I wish i could..."

but i should stop because it won't get me anywhere.

CHEER UP LENG LUI
dont wana see u sad

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Well, been a while.. again.. i always take a while to finally kno that i should write something up. i wana make this a habit because it's a good way to think about the days. anyway, i feel guilty for not writing for so long, as that's a start.

9/10 for my SAC which is quite good :D but if it wasnt for stupid negative signs and (4-2)^2 = 2 crap, i might've got a 10/10.
oh well, just means i gotta work harder, next sac in 2 weeks, i should really start preparing. also, exams in 3 weeks time.

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yeah i like dividing them because i can organise my thoughts clearly so i dont jump around.

My list of awesome baby names compiled with my partner hahaha i mean wong partner, just so happens that we have the same surname so it would make sense that we compile our list of names together, so it matches with the surname. in her words "we're so convenient!"
actually i took the list out in case any of u reading would wana steal them :P sorry folks.

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anyway, i wana talk about yesterday. there was a little girl in front of breadtop in boxhill who was crying really loud.. and she seemed lost. i cant believe people just walked past her.. but anyway, my brother and i were trying to help her out. but she seemed scared and started walking away from us.. we followed for a while but she was clearly lost, so a lady helped us pick her up and comforted her, while i went to look for someone to help us out

saw melvern on the way, so we found these people who were working to call security, and yeah, eventually found her mum/guardian.

do i feel heroic? do i feel amazingly good?
surprisingly, nope. not only because i didnt do most of the work, but alo because it's something anyone could've done.
but i am proud of the fact that i was a PART of it. so my whole 'i wana help ppl' thing was applied there, so this is a start :D

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wooh!! more sections
i've had thoughts about my life these days.
i always complain about stuff, how i am not this or not that, or can't do this or that..
but im always an optimistic tryhard as many would know.. so i'd tell myself how other people are not anywhere close to where i am, so i should be amazingly grateful

which is SO TRUE. i am very lucky, i've got above average of everything. some people in this world i feel so sorry for.. those who are suffering from poverty; those who are disadvantaged in so many ways, physically, psychologically, mentally; those who are oppressed; those who cant even enjoy 1% of the luxuries that i enjoy.

i am very aware of all this, and i always tell myself that.
If my situation's bad, there's always someone worse..

but then i dont know why.. eventhough i just had these thoughts before i slept last night, today i've had thoughts that are so "the glass is half empty".. like.. there's always someone better than me..
well, not like that, but just... so ungrateful of what i've been given.. it's like i keep asking for more eventhough i know i already have lots. hahah something's just wrong with me today.

but yeah, linking to that. i know how fucking lucky i am, and is because of my parents. i go to a good school, i live the best life my parents can give me..
so the only thing i can really do is do well for my vce..

i know this is all bullshit, but i hope writing enough of these will actually get me to realise i cant just WRITE ABOUT IT, i need to DO IT.

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uh another section..
but i dont remember what was supposed to go in here

whatever it was in my mind.. couldnt have been interesting..
doubt anyone wouldve read up to here anyway just swimming through my bullshit isnt all that fun..

but then again my blog isnt to entertain its for me to release my PMS

sometimes it makes me wonder why some people are so perfect.. in all aspects.

makes me wonder as well why some people who deserve to be happy.. cant be.

chem test tomorrow hopefully i'll go well :D

well, seems like its goodbye to the chocolate.

i didnt make a 100% decision to buy the iphone yet.. but someone's already helped me buy it. so i guess i have no choice now. but anyhow, it seems pretty awesome, just gotta live with no video camera :(. i dont use it much anyway but its nice to be able to capture videos from time to time. oh well

gona be my phone soon

its 1am why am i still here?!
because of a very GAY and ANNOYING physics prac report i had to do..

pushup bra = more cleavage.
ok got it

what do i wana be remembered as?

Several things on my mind now..

one being.. why's my life so boring? sighh

ooh another thought, chem and physics prac, chem test, wooh..

see, i need to get a fucking life =.= lets start by getting the fuck over the fact that my life is so sad.

why do i use so many unnecessary breaks between lines?
and wtff whenever i add a picture it screws up the whole thing

FORMAL IN LESS THAN A YEAR.... so excited coughh





family went back yesterday.. back to being lonely at home.





My Oath for the last two years of high school

I will finish all homework

I will be organised

I will not fall behind

I will not be below average in all tests

I will improve

I will succeed

A pile of lion shit? (quotes veex2you). i hope not. i WILL put in the effort.

vx2uisawesomeness:D

im sure i had a lot to talk about, but mental blank is in the way.
oh right.. i hate hypocrits e.g. calling someone fat without a look in the mirror.
i had 2 ppl in mind when i wrote that.

ah well, life goes on.. gotta deal with douchebags all the time.
oh hey, another person popped into my mind as i wrote that.

yeaaa procrastinating is boring.. i should do some work now. physics, chem, mm, ga, eng..

anyway, today's monday.

5 years ago

5 years after

i look stoned.. but these photos are rare

yeah! she's here in melb :P awesomenesss but she's leaving like erally soon..next sunday i think.. only have saturday to spend with her. hope it'll be longer than last meeting if SOME DOUCHEBAG WOULD LET GO.

also, the same night, was really awesome as well, coz i had an awesome awesome chat with my MINI VICNESSA. and also i styled this blog :D which gave me a little push to write this entry..

TODAY

is Bryan's 9th birthday!! i dont see the point greeting him here though.. anyway, it's fun having like 2 bday cakes in a row

off to bed :D

lol do i look like the kind of person who'd think that an electric appliance does not need to be plugged in?... think again

anyway out of that topic

FIRST sac ever tomorrow. MM sac, hopefully i'll do well.
and also, today's the first day of the term. mostly shitty, but anyway, new term, new start. gona actually make an effort to change myself now, inclusing my gay long hair.. which i'll say goodbye to tomorrow.

So, i've decided that maybe i can write bout all my experiences from VCE.
ready for tomorrow's sac? nop
well ihave the rest of tonight..so i hope it'll be fine.