because i feel like by doing this.. maybe i have more solid views of things around me. and recording it down.. it's just a nice feeling organising my thoughts as i'm typing it out, and reflecting whats been happening in my day, or my week.

anyway, today, and the past few days, have been a mixture of feelings.
i feel loved, kinda.
i feel hateful, but loving?
i feel sad, yet i put on a smile.
i try thinking positive, yet i dont fool myself coz i know the negative's there

i dont know what im feeling.. or what im supposed to feel. i guess it's just there are ups and downs in life, and maybe this is my down? i dont mean to sound emo, but it just seems to me these dew days haven't been all that great, eventhough nothing significant happened.

does anything significant ever happen in my life?.. dont think so.. maybe that's why i want to feel like there's a change.

hahah im not making much sense now.

i really should be doing work, or at least revising.. yet im typing this up.. and playin the psp. been hooked on to it for the past few days.

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o yea didnt blog about my bday.
well it wasnt really special, so guess there's not much to write on it.