how ppl judge others by first impressions.

not talkin bout me tho, dont care if other ppl judge me

but i just feel bad for those who are, and feel sorry for those who do the judging, that they're so narrow-minded.

am i supposed to stand up to what i believe in? or should i blend into the group but still hold on to my beliefs?

haha soudns like such a stupid question

anywayy fucking sore from walk-a-thon and badminton training..

i hate it when you fucking make assumptions
and you fuckjing misunderstand
but i dont bother to correct it because it wont make things any better

i feel so betrayed

if only you knew me better.
im not an object, or something like an invesment. i actually have my own character, if only you fucking knew.

sometimes i wonder, in ur eyes, am i any diff to the other 2? hmm probably the answer si a fucking yes.
sucks to be me sometimes.

so much shit going on.. never ends.


so much responsibilities as well.. feels like there are no actual 'breaks' now.. it seems that 'break' now would mean 'less time for your other work'..

now that i think of it.. im regretting for stuff i didnt but couldve done..

ah well.. life goes on.. and even by writing this im wasting precious minutes i can use to study for the 4 tests on friday.

fuckk just had a long rant to her and i think i better off typin it here

can u help me print this out so i can spend a lovely and romantic valentine with my bf?
can u gimme the present to give my gf?
can you help me buy reload cards for my mobile phone? i'll pay u back i promise
can you help me pay for this first?
can you pick up the costume instead?
can you keep the number so u can call u check on it instead?
can you help me download a song?
can you help me find a present for him?
can you lend me 20 bucks?
can you pay for it first? and later they'll pay you back. u know, u ARE like a co-host of the party.
can you help me talk to him? he's pissed at me
what did i do wrong?
i'm angry can i take it out on u?
can u help me with my homework? i'v ebeen talkin to my gf/bf so much i havent had the time.
im bored..can u talk to me? entertain me (like u're only good for that, or if not it's worth a fucking shot anyway)
hey i dont have anything else to do so i guess i'll have to resort to YOUR party, so can i come?
can you accompany me? i cant go alone coz my mum wont let me. but my real intention is to meet him.
can you accompany me? i dont wana go alone when i see her, it'll be nicer if u were there..
oh there he/she is.. ur job is done bye bye now.
can i use ur name so i can go out? OOH HELLO MY DEAREST FRIENDS. "who's that guy who came with u?" "uhmm..just some guy"
'everyone u HAVE to bring gifts'; 'omg thanks victor that's sucha great present! sry i havent had the time to buy urs yet i'll get it next time'
cant think of a gift..kfc? i mean u know..not that im trying to get out of it.. but it's just such a smart idea i dont have to lose braincells to repay you.
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oh i solved my problem perfectly without outside help. wait, did i? i dont remember. meh.. (i know it doesnt make sense watever..that only applies to some of the statements)


fuck.ing.shit.heads

ihate the fact that im a giver by nature

because no one is gona appreciate it

only gona use it

take advantage of it

and then forget that i gave and they received

as if they received deservingly

as if it came out of nowhere.

......

i dont ask for a lot

a 'hi' to me without a request, a need for help, or any other kind of expectations from me to satisfy you, would automatically make you a good friend.

i dont mind helping.. i like helping. it's like my personal motto. to help others, is to help myself.

but i hate being used. not as a friend, but as a sourse of benefits and nothing else

what goes around comes around.. now that i think about all this.. it seems like that phrase is a load of bullshit.

am i havin my period?

bla
it's 10.50 and initially i had stuff to write about but now i cant be fucked now.
really 3 minute passions i have..